Secrets and Lies

well... we're besties again. but uber drama queen toto thinks we're gonna split up agian by the end of the week, but i'll make sure that doesn't happen.

well this doesn't pull me out of my depressed state though... i still feel so alone and empty without dylan. and toto is all the time making jokes about him and sasha, not funny. not funny at all. idk what she's going at. uhm what is she trying to do? make my life worse?

tonight immatell them everythign i've been holding back... uhg idk if i can though... i mean i've been doing somthing so horrible that they'll be so pissed at me. >>; i just can't say it at work 'cause with my luck paris and nichole will enter the jobplace just as i'm saying it and they'll goitno uber pity mode on me and say 'oh there are places you can go to get some help. poor thing' uhg, and even if they don't walk in the other ppl will hear.

anyways, but i'm glad to have vanny back, since she really is a huge help, and at least my life won't be boring anymore with toto around...

FINE THEN

wow, third post in one day then...

but ANYWAYS.

who need them?!

u cannot beleive what vanny and toto said today. first they refused to sit with me, and then after i TRIED to make things right they were all like 'omg nuu we don't trust you! ur not our friend!'. so fine then. they didn't take their chance to have me back instead...

we were watching 'who's wedding is it anyway?' at the resturaunt, that was depressing enough, as seeing imma never get married, since the only person i'd ever marry is dylan. but so it was a black wedding so they jumped over the broom and vans and toto wanted to know whhat they did, and i explained it. so then toto decided to be the usual ass that she is and said

'o. dylan and sasha will probably do that at thier wedding.'

no.

that's just...

no.

the only reason they would of have said was if they wanted to hurt me. which they did. god. i can't beleive that beybey would even hang out with them when they're so nasty.

oyah, about sasha, well she and dylan has a thing together a while back and she really hurt him by not dating him. and now that he has dated and broken up with me he's going after her again.

uhg.uhguhguhguhguhg!

i can't beleive that vanny and toto would be such bitches...

yeah, they ruined every chance of things being good between us...

*sigh*

i'm so depressed...

i need some relief.

going to dinner

i'm getting ready to go to dinner now.

vans and toto will probably be there...

let's hope they come home, cause it's really lonley here without them.

and quiet without toto's pms voice.

Well...

okay, i admit it. i kept some secrets from my besties and now they've left me alone in my misery...

but now imma be open. fully open. no more secrets.

but imma let them out slowly, kay? i can't just throw everythign on everyone all at once.

first lemme introduce myself. my name is emma bunches, never-to-be emma pineapple.

i was (and i still am) in love with dylan pineapple. the most perfect man for me ever...we had such a great relationship but then he ended it... because i caused too much drama in his life.

so yeah, this blog for now will be my little emo-pitty-myself blog.

well anyways and on my friends. they are vanessa williams and natosha peacock. theyre awesome friends but... toto gets too dramaticand has left my house that i let her live in countless times and vanny is a ditsy model type and doesn't realize what's going to hurt someone alot.

and then there's my sister, the only other resident of my house at this moment. she's great, although we're not that close, we're getting closer now though.

anyways, i'm sure toto and vanny'll come back soon. we're besties forever, they can't deny that. neither can i or else i would of have stopped being their friend a long time ago.